Today's rambling: I've been found out!
Written on January 03, 2002 at 8:03 p.m.
while feeling a bit

I'm so sick of my diary being found by perverts looking for porn on the Net! I mean yeah, unfortunately some of the things I've talked about, while completely unrelated to what they're looking for, have had words that are prime porn search words. But still, don't these people have anything better to do than look around for this stuff? Get a life, morons. I thought I had no life, but some of you guys out there really take the cake. I think I might make a medal for you. "Loser of the Year goes to...oh, WAIT! It's tied! Amongst all these lonely Internet geeks! Congratulations to all of you for being a complete waste of matter!"

Anyway. Now that I've gotten most of my irritation out...

The company leader came in today to congratulate all of us because our store came out at the top of the division. Woo ha. As Don said, maybe we'd all care a little more if we were given more incentive to do this silly GAT stuff. We've been promised raises I don't know how many times now, but has it ever happened? Nope. And it's nice to be recognized, I suppose, but only if the person means it. And this man, I believe, does not.

Nobody seems to see it but me. This guy is unbelievably shady-looking. He's got one of those fake smiles, and his eyes are really shifty and stuff. I don't know, maybe it's just that I have a sort of sixth sense when it comes to people that I meet (irl, that is). Not that I've never been wrong about a person, but I'm almost always able to tell if a person's trustworthy or not just by being with them for a few minutes. It's a talent I think nearly everyone has, it's just that most people don't pay attention to it. Sometimes it's not even visual or auditory clues that lead me to believe a person can't be trusted; there are times when I can just feel that they're a suspicious sort.

So maybe that's why no one in the store understands me on this one--they're all so accustomed to taking things at face value that they can't see what lies beneath. But I tell you what: I don't like him at all.

Regis and Kelly were live from California Adventure today, and it made me want to go to Disneyland all over again!! I'm so excited at the thought of going! And I know Laura might not want/be able to go, but I'll keep dreaming anyway. ;) *sings cheesily* A dream is a WISH your heart makes.... :oP

Umm...Demmy, you can come live with me, okay? *giggles and huggles* I have no siblings, just lots of pets! ;)

And Janette, if you ever get the hang of palmistry, I expect you to read my palm, got it? *grins* I never could figure that stuff out. Heck, I still can't figure tarot cards out, LoL! I don't really use them for anything, it's just a fun concept. Hehehe...

Nothing really happened today! I hope Kellie came in at 6:30 like she was scheduled to. By the time I left (at 6:30), she wasn't there...but of course, she could've been late. I only got one part of the evening setups done, but that was technically her job anyway, so I guess it doesn't matter. However, if she didn't come in, that'll suck for Debbie tomorrow morning. And if John or Zenon knew that she wouldn't be in, I had SO better not hear them yelling at me, because it's their fault. The communication in this place sucks.

Ben knows I like Geoff. >_< I didn't even tell him, he just figured it out! Not like it was very hard to do, what with the way I like to hang around and talk to Geoff, but still...those two are fairly good friends, I think, so what if he says anything? I like Ben and all--he's a really nice guy, if a little on the strange side, hehe--and maybe it could be a good thing if he knew? I have to try to tell myself that it could be a good thing, because if I focus on all the bad stuff that might happen from his knowing, then I'll flip out!

The odd thing is, there've been a couple times recently where he's made comments that almost sound like he's hinting that maybe Geoff likes me. It's a long shot, and I'm sure I'm reading too much into it, but...yeah. He's also made several comments that gave me the suspicion that he knew, but when I asked Mom about it tonight, she said he did know.

"How?" I of course inquired. Apparently, she found out because she'd asked Ben where I was, and Ben replied with a sarcastic, "Gee, I wonder..." or something like that, then nodded in the direction that Geoff was in...I don't know, I can't remember exactly how the story went, but I was like, "Eep!" So we'll just have to see what happens with that. I think he's known for awhile now, so if he's said anything to Geoff, Geoff certainly isn't acting aloof or disinterested around me, hehe...

And I think that's all for tonight. It's a little after 8 o'clock, which means I can take my Evening Formula stuff (despite the aloe vera gel that's in it, refrigerating it makes it taste much more tolerable)...and go to bed! Yay! This Berry's tired!